lifes a bitch. So am i .

What happened today was something i am going to regret all my life. and yet.. i just don't know what to do.
Their all i have, and maybe for the happiness of one i have to loose another. i just don't know.
I'm completely devastated. It was like, when i lost my love. more than two years ago. When i had to pretend to hate, pretend to be angry, pretend to be rude, just so i know in a while i can see the other smile.
even though it leaves me completely destroyed. I know that i will see you smile in a few days, just like him
This was the hardest thing i'v ever done.
but maybe to make some smile, you have to make some frown.
Hardest shit ever.
and somehow when you can't smoke and your out of spirit. all you want to do is die.
at least i do.
i don't know what i should do.
im just randomly rambling.

you still mean so much to me.
but i guess you'l never know.

i want to still be your babe.
but i can't.
and im sorry

you don't have to be the settler anymore.
your free.

you deserve better.






forever yours ( in my heart)
Runaway Rockstar