Forever and ever

When your life revolves around certain people, before you notice their all you care about. 

Friends i have many, ones i call my heart, few. 

Since my identity is still behind the screen, i will not reveal names. 

My life revolves around, say about 5 people. 

now if you ask my who is more important, i'd choose 3. but leave that. 

Last night, i receive a text message from one of my hearts (that is what i will call them further more) 

he mentions something about cancer in him. and that set me off. 

Now, i talk a lot about death and shit. Im not scared of it, nor do i care much. But the death of a friend, family, acquaintance does scare me. specially the death of one of my hearts. 

I have been knows for my unorthodox ways and frankly odd methods. but that doesn't fucking bother me. 

anyway. 

now cancer is something i don't like talking about.

This is quiet an random post. i guess im just a little 'mind fucked' at the moment. what i really want now, is a fucking fag and a bottle of JD. 

forever theirs. 

runaway rockstar