Hearing the waves crashing onto the rocks has this weird effect on me..
the sound of the sea.. calms my soul.. an inner voice that is usualy lost returns and helps me realize what i really am.. it gives me a break from the world..
My Time.. Only me
On my phone plays a great classic 'Soldier Of Fortune' by Deep Purple..
Friday.. D'Day.. results wil be declared and a voice inside me tells me im going to fail my folks..
Its weird how i have never been able to be friends with girls.. their theories and ideas make no sense.. mind you im a strong femenist and yet i complain..
i seem to be more comfortable with guys.. i can be Me and not care about what they think..
But Social Tabboo forces me to be what im not.. forced me to do what i dont want to..
coming back to results..
Even though i fail to understand why i fear results.. i have already got what i wanted then why?
probably the joy i saw in my folks when they saw her marks .. the joy on everyone.. i have a constant voice telling me that im going to crush their hopes.. burn their dreams to ashes..
even though i know they will not care after a while.. but that momentary joy lasts forever..
for now i say good bye
yours truely
Rockstar
Monday, May 24, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Silence
This was preety much inspired by a facebook note than a friend had put up.
>> http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/notes/vishak-sudha-ayappan/silence/10150191507810652
worth a read.
But he mentiond silence, as a whole.
im just going to mention about three things
1. the silence in Love.
2. the silence of Nature.
3. the silence of The Troubled.
all the three have a weird link to my life. to everyones i suppose. sometimes, the three combine to give a weird mess
The Silence in Love
In love, words don't really matter. Yes, they do make you smile.. sometimes.. even cry. but the real essence is in the stillness of moment. when you feel that the world around you has stopped moving. the world has stopped turning.
the silence when you just gaze into those eyes.
the silence when he hold you close.
the silence when he pushes your hair back and kisses you
you know, just by being there that someone loves you. he/she doesn't have to tell you. the silence explains it better than words ever could.
you know your heart is safe, how long? know one knows.
slow dancing with him in dim light without music.
très parfaite
The Silence Of Nature
The sudden silence that quietens your world. the sudden silence that lets your thoughts free. it calms you. gives you a break from the mundane routined life.
it lets your mind regenrate what was losd and rid of what isn't wanted.
the stillness of the ocean.
the rustling of dry leaves
the serenity of a desert.
you dive into your inner seld that was probably lost in your busy life
a break taken from a world where you are what they want. but not truely who you are .
a break from 'LIFE' itself.
The Silence of 'The Troubled'
A silence not forced, but yet forced
a silence that tortures them
escape is easy, yet only momentarily
the silence, bringing back the pain. the reason. the trouble.
the pain of a lost child
the pain of a widow
lonliness drives people mad. yet this lonliness isn't silent
thoughts of the pain scream at you. making you want to scream and yet you only remain still
the silence makes you wonder whether you are prey or just unlucky
you think of the bad done/happend to you
it is a silence pained beyond pyshical pain and yet you can't descripe it .
there is no cure. but ignore.
the question .
Rockstar
>> http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/notes/vishak-sudha-ayappan/silence/10150191507810652
worth a read.
But he mentiond silence, as a whole.
im just going to mention about three things
1. the silence in Love.
2. the silence of Nature.
3. the silence of The Troubled.
all the three have a weird link to my life. to everyones i suppose. sometimes, the three combine to give a weird mess
The Silence in Love
In love, words don't really matter. Yes, they do make you smile.. sometimes.. even cry. but the real essence is in the stillness of moment. when you feel that the world around you has stopped moving. the world has stopped turning.
the silence when you just gaze into those eyes.
the silence when he hold you close.
the silence when he pushes your hair back and kisses you
you know, just by being there that someone loves you. he/she doesn't have to tell you. the silence explains it better than words ever could.
you know your heart is safe, how long? know one knows.
slow dancing with him in dim light without music.
très parfaite
The Silence Of Nature
The sudden silence that quietens your world. the sudden silence that lets your thoughts free. it calms you. gives you a break from the mundane routined life.
it lets your mind regenrate what was losd and rid of what isn't wanted.
the stillness of the ocean.
the rustling of dry leaves
the serenity of a desert.
you dive into your inner seld that was probably lost in your busy life
a break taken from a world where you are what they want. but not truely who you are .
a break from 'LIFE' itself.
CHANGE
The Silence of 'The Troubled'
A silence not forced, but yet forced
a silence that tortures them
escape is easy, yet only momentarily
the silence, bringing back the pain. the reason. the trouble.
the pain of a lost child
the pain of a widow
lonliness drives people mad. yet this lonliness isn't silent
thoughts of the pain scream at you. making you want to scream and yet you only remain still
the silence makes you wonder whether you are prey or just unlucky
you think of the bad done/happend to you
it is a silence pained beyond pyshical pain and yet you can't descripe it .
there is no cure. but ignore.
the question .
How long can you ignore??
Rockstar
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Thoughts i don't really require
I should have been writing/completing my entre work. but i would rather jump of a cliff. again, maybe not
1. when a whole group of people hate a teacher. or anybody for that matter, there is deffntly something wrong with that person, cause honestly not a whole group of people are dumb
2. i don't get the idea of bffs. yeah, i have a whole lot of best friends or that sort of things. friends. are friends . nome closer than the other. but one bff. maybe not
3. true love lasts forever. BULL CRAP> yeah, you may love someone a LOT, but honestly, everyone needs a break..
4. you think i don't know. but i totaly know your talking about me . WHORE
i have to leave for school now. i willl type later.
xx
1. when a whole group of people hate a teacher. or anybody for that matter, there is deffntly something wrong with that person, cause honestly not a whole group of people are dumb
2. i don't get the idea of bffs. yeah, i have a whole lot of best friends or that sort of things. friends. are friends . nome closer than the other. but one bff. maybe not
3. true love lasts forever. BULL CRAP> yeah, you may love someone a LOT, but honestly, everyone needs a break..
4. you think i don't know. but i totaly know your talking about me . WHORE
i have to leave for school now. i willl type later.
xx
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