Hallelujah..

Hearing the waves crashing onto the rocks has this weird effect on me..
the sound of the sea.. calms my soul.. an inner voice that is usualy lost returns and helps me realize what i really am.. it gives me a break from the world..
My Time.. Only me
On my phone plays a great classic 'Soldier Of Fortune' by Deep Purple..
Friday.. D'Day.. results wil be declared and a voice inside me tells me im going to fail my folks..
Its weird how i have never been able to be friends with girls.. their theories and ideas make no sense.. mind you im a strong femenist and yet i complain..
i seem to be more comfortable with guys.. i can be Me and not care about what they think..
But Social Tabboo forces me to be what im not.. forced me to do what i dont want to..
coming back to results..
Even though i fail to understand why i fear results.. i have already got what i wanted then why?
probably the joy i saw in my folks when they saw her marks .. the joy on everyone.. i have a constant voice telling me that im going to crush their hopes.. burn their dreams to ashes..
even though i know they will not care after a while.. but that momentary joy lasts forever..
for now i say good bye

yours truely

Rockstar